After some searching I finally found my long lost blog. It's been a year and two months since I last posted.
With big changes for our family just around the corner I had to sit and write, if nothing else, for my own sanity. Writing has always been very therapeutic, so here goes, cuz this girl needs some serious therapy today.
The past year or so has been wonderful. Hubby has had a great job working in the American Airlines training center. He's had short hours, and even better he has been home every night. This was a huge change from the first 6 years of our marriage which consisted of 4 day trips and "good night" messages left on voicemail. Being married to a pilot has it's perks, but it can also be trying at times too. Needless to say we've been so spoiled to have Daddy home this past year, no traveling, no voicemail messages. no "see you in 4 days-goodbye hugs".
This past December we recieved the heartbreaking news that due to American Airlines filing chapter 11 bankrupcy, Hubby would be loosing his wonderful job at the training center. As saddened as we are by this news, we are trying to stay positive and remember how blessed we are that he still has a job. The challenge this time (should we choose to accept it) is that he will now be commuting to Chicago. This means Daddy will be gone... alot. Commute out to Chicago, wait to be called for a trip, fly for 4 days (give or take a day), then commute home. There could be weeks in each month where we only see him for one day.
Despite my anxiety about this challenge, I do hold tight to the belief that the Lord is in control. As Chad's wise uncle pointed out to us. We have been trained for this, we have been equipped on how to handle it's challenges. The Lord is and will continue to equip even the boys for this new season (2 and 5 years old). In fact, it was pretty cool, tonight as our little 5 year old was praying at Dinner, he said "Lord please help Daddy's trip to go well, please keep him safe". Though Daddy's trip isn't for another 4 day from now, our little guy is being prepared heart and mind for what's to come.
I find too that when Hubby travels I am given an extra dose of super-Mommy strength. I find that I have more energy to get things done. I manage my time well, and feel a sense of leadership or ownership of the day. I don't know if this is because a) I'm not just sitting on my bum hanging out talking with my man, or if it's because b) God truly does give us what we need, when we need it. I like to believe it's "B". I too enjoy learning through these times how to follow His plans better. Not mine, but His. Learning to trust when I can't see the whole picture. Learning to feel His peace, when I clearly don't have any on my own. Though the journey seems long the lessons are worth it. I am always reminded that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I am also reminded, that Hubby has a job. It will be an adjustment, but he has a job.
I do trust that when the Lord promises in Jeremiah to "give you a hope and a future", that He means it. I know God has plans. It will be an adventure to watch this picture unfold over the next few months. Even if nobody ever reads this entry, I feel better. I have to admit that 2nd to last paragraph has NOT been one of my reeling thoughts lately. Trust. Follow. Peace. Writing IS therapeutic...and we are going to be just fine these next few months, or however long this season may last.
